I understand that sound completely. Back when I threw my 1st one, I needed the 1st one in the 10th frame to shoot 800. Smashed the pocket, exploded the rack and low and behold standing there was the 7 pin. "Right handed" Ever since then that pin has been my nemisis. Been close to the 300 oh so many times and seemed like, the 7 pin was 75% of the 1 pin I left. I swore if I left it last night I was going to throw my shoe at it....lol.
I am sure yours will come soon, I hope it does. Let me know when you shoot it, I always love hearing about people shooting honor scores, and like watching them as well......!