I'd really like to advance myself in bowling in any way possible, but the amount of resistance or negativity is astounding, and I have to admit it's nearly turned me into a severely bitter, defensive, pissy hermit. Now here's a big caveat, a lot of the time I post exactly how I feel on here, BUT that doesn't mean I agree with those feelings or let them have any control or affect how I go about my business, I'm just acknowledging that they're there.
I'd love to be a Gold level USBC coach, I'd love to become IBPSIA certified in everything (Pro Shop Tech levels 1 and 2, as well as pro shop business), I'd like to continue writing, maybe eventually getting published when I have more experience, I'd like to coach, own my own pro shop, maybe be involved with a bowling center, etc. But here's the deal, you explain those aspirations to people, and it's, "Eh, that's not that big of a deal, if you know what you're doing, why do you need to pay thousands of dollars for certificates?" or "So what you're doing right now isn't good enough for you?" or "Well that sounds like overkill for our market, you trying to leave? Too good for us now?" or "But bowling is dying, do you want to put all your eggs in that basket?"
But if I DO remain content, or just keep plugging away, then all the sudden I don't have the drive or the desire . . My attitude is kind of changing like, "Look, this is what I like, this is what I'm going to do, if it doesn't work out, oh well." But that sounds like an EXTREMELY ignorant, childish attitude. But at the same time, it could be the right way to look at it, stop letting everybody else confuse me or push me off track. My dilemma is which is it? Sometimes it's wise to step back and take everything into consideration, and other times it's wise to do what you know you need to do and stop listening to everyone. Normally I have very definitive opinions and feelings one way or the other, but I'm honestly confused out of my mind here. On one hand, it feels like I ought to just cut my losses, it's already cost me enough, and it's just not worth it, and on the other hand it feels like BECAUSE it's already cost me so much, it would be a horrible decision to give up now and waste all the "dues" I've already paid. Help me out here.