Been there, done that.
Always pushing myself, always striving to achieve more, learn more, and be the best can be punishing.
I finally had to stop and remind myself why I started bowling in the first place. It was to get out of the house and enjoy some time with my wife and friends, doing something we all ENJOYED. The recreational side was gone for me, and it had become more like a second job than an enjoyable activity.
Yes, I still want to be good, but there has to be a balance to it as well that lets me participate without obsessing.
I no longer practice 40-50 games a week. I no longer have to IMMEDIATELY have the next great piece of equipment. And I no longer feel the need to have the highest game/series/average in the house.
I now bowl two leagues a week, that's it. I have "new" equipment, but got it at closeout prices because 90% of it is last years model. And I now feel blessed just to be able to participate and spend a relaxing evening with friends and family, doing something we enjoy.
Remember why you got started in the first place and how much fun you had at first. You're probably not ever going to make a living doing it, so let it be a fun, recreational activity that you also happen to be pretty good at. And remember, a bad night of bowling ISN'T going to change your life and won't even matter next week. Focus on what is important in life, get your priorities straight (like I had to ), and enjoy yourself. After all, bowling is supposed to be FUN, isn't it?
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