I appreciate your post and your candor, Current.
I'm the "old lady" of BR - and can offer a bit of my own experience. Maybe that will give you a slightly different perspective.
I grew up bowling, but although it was during the heyday of the sport, as a woman, I knew that the possibility of making a living was slim to none. I was on the #1 ranked college team for 4 years, but knew that the college education was the best part of bowling in college. (not the most fun, though
) And, frankly, when I was younger, I didn't have the "killer instinct" that it takes to win at the tour level.
When I had my first child, I put the bowling balls in the garage for 12 years. Never missed it at all. Not once. We bowled 3 games that entire time - and I NEVER missed the game.
I started back up when my youngest was 7 - old enough for juniors. I was just under 40. And I haven't stopped since.
I don't want to presume to tell you what to do with your future. That's your decision - of course. Let me share the "wisdom of hindsight" with you.
When I went back to the game, I had the drive and talent to excel at the sport. I was a fairly big fish in the small pond I lived in at the time. I moved to the Portland, OR area, where we still are. I was working for another company at the time, and spent most weekends bowling tournaments or practicing, and bowled from 2-5 leagues a week - or practiced upwards of 50 games a week.
I bowled every scratch tournament I could find, started a womens scratch organization here in the northwest, and captured 2002 PWBA rookie of the year. In 2003, I felt I was finally good enough to give the tour a try. I worked all spring and summer, worked things out with my boss, and got ready to go on the fall ladies tour swing. Of course, you're aware that they cancelled the tour about 3 weeks before it was due to start.
I lost my dream. And at 47, I was too old to find a new one. I know that I regret not having the opportunity. I don't know that I would have done well on the tour, but I would have tried. And that's what counted for me.
I've also lost most of my motivation to seriously compete. Now I'm almost 52, injured, and it's too late. And I didn't get the chance.
No, I'm not whining. But - I didn't get a chance to live my dream. I don't know if your passion is still there for the PBA - but if it is, and you give it up, think how you may feel at 52.
If the passion isn't there, and you end up "wasting" a year of income you could have made elsewhere, will you regret the decision to stay on tour?
I know the decision is an agonizing one. How long do you have to make up your mind, before you look like a "bad guy"?
Any way - boils down to - if you give up your exemption, how much will you regret it in 20 years?
Conversely, if you DON'T give up your exemption - how much will you regret it in 20 years?
Because you don't often get "do-overs" in professional sports.
Good luck, and GodSpeed with your decision.
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